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Disclaimer: This following piece of literature is simply one of the varied opinions in my head. This is not the attitude I live by but merely one that has been invoked by the bitterness I currently feel.

This infuriating anomaly has been growing in my mind and I simply cannot contain it any longer. The first time I realized this fixation of the ideas and theories that has popped into my head; I was shocked to grasp how long it took me to realize how contemptuous and somewhat retarded it is for people to be controlled by the world. Society and the community we live in have always affected the way we act and who we are as a person. No matter how much we loathe and detest the truth of this fact it simply is because we deny that we as people are controlled by others; when we are in fact professedly are the ones that justifies the existence of what the world is.

As humans we somehow develop this need to fear something or someone. If I was an atheist I would say that religion was simply one factor where humans create to form a logical sense of fear for the unknown. Though I am profoundly to be a Christian, I have come to a rather obscuring question. Are we to live a life of struggle and languish for the fear of the unknown? Can we not simply accept that we are not even close to perfection? Some might say that it is quite obvious that we aren’t, however some strive for the grand ultimatum of perfection. Why do we live under constant fear when those like ourselves have created those fears we are so haunted by.

Everyone goes through the process of adulthood; some more difficulty than others and some with much ease and gratification. Since our conception we grow little by little and take a greater part in the world around us. With so many of us, you would think we would have taken over the world and our place in it could easily be found. However, the opposite is the reality. Many of us fear life outside our comfort zone; remote from the usual things we see and do every day of our lives. This fear restrains us from accepting a greater part of life. Not the life we have so comfortably set for ourselves. For who are we to limit and measure the extensity of life? Mere mortals.

Evolution is a theory in which every living being is a complicated process where we develop ourselves into something greater. It took millions of years to finally achieve who we are now; even now we are still learning to ‘evolve’ to the next stage. One vital phase in our lives is solely called high school. Many experts say that our life’s foundation is our past, our childhood. The smallest memory of things throughout that fraction of our lives can change life permanently. It can either suppress us or open our eyes to a whole new world through the perspective of the young hearted. From any other aspect found high school is the most apparent example where my statement is true. It is how we are controlled by the world around us when the one thing that defines ourselves is us. Peer pressure changes a person through fear; the fear of rejection, the fear of humiliation and the fear of getting hurt. We fear these things, therefore we follow a certain order in which is controlled by others who are no different than you and me.

In the grand design, are we actually created to be suppressed by fear? Is it what controls us? Or, do we stand for ourselves and be defined as someone different. Would that be such tragedy?

Pretension: Web of Lies in School

Disclaimer: Turn away if you are pro-school establishment and detests people like me.

The present, the future of the past. We are today, in a world of pathological liars. It is such that we even have to study Theory of Knowledge in school just to be able to discern from the lies and facts. In school, I see the pretension everywhere but yet I am not sure because people lie so well I could not be sure of anything anymore. I always thought of school as a fun place, a location of young innocence accompanied by truth but now I had been disillusioned by the very location I trusted. Friendships, actions, attitudes, kindness, emotions; to what extent is lies and to what extent is the truth? I have seen people use friendship as a way to manipulate and gain such that it is no surprise that insecurity and paranoia reigns. Betrayals are common-place and lying is nothing new. Even feelings are doubted to be genuine and even the liars do not feel their lies and finally depends on these fake attitudes, skills and emotions to get through the day. I have seen the facade of so-called Christians and I am sure that people have noticed how their well-hid hypocrisy reigns. I have seen tiny lies, students lying to teachers about homework or big ones that affect all morality in this "sanctimonous ground" I have seen malingerers, liars, sociopaths steal the truth from idealists who are naive enough to believe that the truth actually exists in the ostentatious sacredness of school.

People may deny that they are lying because they had lied so well in almost everything, they could no longer even know whether they are lying or not. But deep in their subconcious, embedded into a tiny part of their mind, at some inopportunite moment, I sense that maybe their mind would ebb with a certain pulse they rarely feel but ignore when they feel. Lying has been so natural that eventually, it corroded us into further moral decay. It is such that even when others lie, we do nothing to counter it despite the knowlege of the truth. Gone are the days of mouths washed with soap, reprimands or chiding. Is leniency towards lies turning us all into hypocrites one sense or the other? Are all the rules against lying and all the advice just a way to lie to ourselves that we are alright and we still uphold honesty? Lying might be a manner of how people protect themselves but even in the tiniest manner of lies corrodes us as humans even further no matter how protected. The truth has become very expensive nowadays and we now live in perpetual fear of the truth. In essence, it is so much easier to be ignorant and stupid today than to know of something. The world has turned upside down as the foolish mock those with knowledge and boasts over their ignorance.
The worst part is the ignorant are the lucky ones.

It is ludicrous. How can we trust each other or have friends or do business if we all lie continuously and without remorse? Yet this system of lies works and even works well I might add. The payment for this system is of course our soul as God is now more distant than ever. In this web, God is stranded and tangled, unable to penetrate our wall of lies and fake feelings. I am not even sure that all I feel and write is the truth anymore. This is what I feel right now. This might be the truth but it might not be as I am not exempted from the sin of lies. But as you read this, I sincerely wish for your sake that you are different from me or the other liars. Ask yourself, is what I am feeling true or how I should feel? Is what I am thinking my own or others' or my lies? And you will know fear of truth is there as you fear and deny your own monstrosity.

I wish you, the reader are free of this sin.
I wish too if you are one of us, you will be liberated by someone soon.
So that you can finally be able to emancipate your personality from your own chains.
But A wish is just a wish I fear.

I bid you adieu and honestly, I doubt any comments or readers will come again.

"Ostentatious Drabbles from The Realms of Insanity: Part 1 ENd"