Not Much Happening But I Type Anyway

Pretty trippy format changes in blogspot. Huh. I guess nothing stays forever. And one day so would blogspot and the internet I guess. Then I would be pretty pissed that I put most my thoughts on the internet instead of on paper. So much for leaving behind a part of myself. Probably should get into painting but remembering vincent van gogh's life turns me away from the idea. Speak of which I've been better about past issues lately, however it worsens after a bout of pornography. I guess it really was lust after all. I hope this person is not my last. That would be so shit. And quite a waste. Speak of which this is post 112. Should have stopped after 111 but then again as long as I feel like it I will keep writing even though things I talk about get more and more shallow or lamer. Selfish I know but I don't give a damn. Bye 111~ Visited a hikkomori culture website today. And damn if that didn't depress me. So called hikkomoris get more romance than I do. Now if that's not depressing I don't know what is. Got a bunch of animes and visual novels lately. It got me happier than I have ever been these days. Speak of which reading just a bit of my previous entries. THEY ARE SO ...LAME. I REALLY NEED TO WRITE BETTER CRAP... Well I guess I am not as talented for drama as I thought. It's actually quite a downer. Mother was on my case about grades...this could turn quite ugly. I haven't been that slack but I guess third year is not as easy after all. I underestimated it? But not exactly as lazy. Well oh wells what will be will be. I'll think about it more. Special Call Out to Katawa Shoujo for good writing on Rin Tezuka route and giving me warm feels for Hanako route. Emi was pretty enjoyable as well but a bit shallow. I guess I have a thing for pathos. Will elaborate more next time when it's less late. I think niche interests would get this blog more views. Ego on my part wanting to get more people's views. I guess since I don't have facebook though I am a little justified? I guess... Tried reactivating facebook...but motion denied. Your call God. Sometimes I think my life is meant to be solitary and lonely. I haven't been proven wrong yet so far. Sucks being a guy... probably being a girl is better suited for my personality type...