Recent Annoyances and Finds

I might sound like the slackers in accordance with the Zeitgeist generation( which I kinda am but not in this context), but I do dislike it when people play hard to get (hard to reach/ignoring my attempts to reach them). As if life is not arduous and short enough as it is. On the other hand it might be that people generally dislike me but if that is not so then the world is a very annoying place indeed.

Anyway I tell myself again and again that I won't expect any romance any more and this time I suppose that it's my fault for having such expectations. Is it so horrible to have hope? After all I am young and is it so bad to hope for some kind of youthful romance? Though I suppose it has low probability of happening because of my personality. With my personality, it seems nothing lasts for long despite a short time of connection. I wonder if I do have commitment issues or some kind of underlying issue which makes me lose friends. Anyway, this entry is the epitome of hypocrisy since I am also on the hard to reach spectrum but I guess you hate traits that you most dislike in yourself. Pardon me as well because internet connection's been a bitch lately. I am used to not really having many relationships but having internet keeps me stimulated enough to keep the depression and loneliness at bay and this horrible VODAFONE wireless connection is running my temper dry.

Anyway, I really should be studying but then I can't seem to start. Here is the part where having friends would really help. All in all, those are the issues I have been troubled with lately. First world issues I know and quite shallow I am ashamed to say. But my life is miserable enough as it is without introspection so apologies for now. I shall inspect life further when my mood alleviates. But for now I bid you adieu~

Media Note: Tangled is a pretty good movie, didn't think it would be so original and with such a fresh implementation. Main character's pretty attractively portrayed and script's solid.

Manga Found: Sket Dance is excellent as well despite my previous aversion to trying it out. But it's waaaayyy better than Yankee kun to megane chan. Shingeki no kyoujin was good but I think I shall drop it simply because it is too shounen for my tastes. It is fresh but I do prefer some comedy and I can predict where the plot is going unlike Sket Dance. This is probably why I prefer comedy. I do enjoy surprise and I do like the lack of romance in Sket Dance; it cheers me up and doesn't remind me of sad happenings. Also finished Level E, pretty decent too.

Anime Found: Hanasaku no Iroha

Anime Songs Found: boku ga boku no mama, immoralist (dragon zakura), mirai nikki and deadman wonderland song.

Websites I found : 8Track

Apologies for the lack of articulation and the simplicity of the sentence constructs, typing this out very fast and without thought. Just getting thoughts down somewhere.

99 and lethargy

This would become my 99 th post so far. Can't believe I actually have so much to write. And so much touchy feely crap. Have been avoiding people in general these days. I think life might be cyclical in that way. There was a time near the end of high school which things like these happened as well. And at this point, I think I am pretty much done with romantic relationships. Henceforth if it came to be that I fancy a girl, I would rather let it pass than pursue it. I neither have the energy nor the perseverance to follow through and be likeable at this point. The reason why I have been avoiding people? Simply because there is enough pain in my life as it is. Not going to bother adding more. Relationships seem to change like the wind. It could be good for 3 years and then suddenly you stop talking without a clear reason... My grades seem to be independent of classes I attend so I pray it would repeat this semester as well. A pretty crap entry for my 99 th post. But meh. What can you do? Anyways have a 30% assignment which I must do which I am pretty screwed for (due in 2 days) thus the procrastination. And I do not have the stamina for assignments now in that I can't do all nighters anymore =S we'll see what I can do...